Invisible Illnesses and Doctors.

On the 25th of February, I went to see a doctor I’ve seen since I was 20 years old. I never thought I would see the day he became rude to me. However, this was not the first time I was spoken to rudely by a doctor. I just never expected it from him.

Having endometriosis and fibromyalgia is hard as is. To have an unanswered question as to why I am not responding to treatment is another. “Doctors are busy and do not have time to figure out what is going on” shocked me. I don’t think it was more shocking than “you are a cash cow for them.”

I was distraught and in pure disbelief. I cannot count the number of times I have been tested for lupus. I have only had one positive result from it. However, some of my doctors are convinced I have it. I do not claim it. I do agree that I have the symptoms.

Having something that isn’t on the surface is hard. Scans and tests are way too expensive. Bloodwork can show up one way one week and then the next it’s different. I think we would not be treated so rudely and differently if it was a simple find. “The neurologist washed his hands with you” was enough to make me hop right back into advocating via a blog. NOBODY should ever be told that by a doctor but I was.

Advocating has always been a mission of mine. I felt uninspired and like I was not being heard. After that appointment, I knew it was time for me to shake that off and get back to fighting for me. I am blessed to be in therapy and able to release those emotions.